hm. maybe when you die you go to your own world thats everything your imagination leaked out while you were on earth. well like, when you die if that world was like a dream that lasts forever, your soul should be set free in its exact perfect existence. theres some things i like so much and they make me feel so fucking great (music/ideas/visuals) and they make me want them to be so much more real in so many ways like tranformed into all 5 senses or 6 or 7 or 8 or 9 or however many we really have that this boring planet/life cant be all, what super awesome things make me feel cant mean nothing more than what it is. it has to mean something else. my brain leaks out feelings that come from somewhere else, a place i hope i go when i die. im as non-religious as you can get, and i never thought i would actually think about after i die, but awesome things that make me feel so awesome, idk if they(‘ll) mean something more or not. i really hope so. it’s like i just sit here and listen to a song that makes me feel so weird, i want to be a conductor of those feelings and release them somehow but i just cant in any form. so i hope they mean something more. i dont just mean liking a song or something, i mean, idk, cant explain it.